Never So Deep…

When I met you my heart sang an expectant song…

A simple melody that played… all day long.

 

When we talked, I thought clouds left the sky…

There was sunshine again… and I thought I knew why.

 

When I touched you I imagined my breath picked up its pace…

Looking for that pulsing throb waiting for my heart to race.

 

When I kissed you it was easy for me to ignore…

The Soul God made for me is rich in all things, while you… were emotionally poor.

 

Judging by your cover, when I met you I chose to overlook…

There were only burned pages… inside of your book.

Two souls going in different directions…

One embracing in chaos… the other in need of protection

 

When we talked, reality settled…

It was over before it started… every day… a battle.

You made me doubt myself, and feel I was no good…

I don’t know why I expected better from a kid whose life is the hood.

 

When we touched… we both pulled back…

Was it a lack of interest… or a lack of respect?

I am glad I met you; I will always remember your face.

Ladies; Never give your heart to someone who has decided their life is a waste.

 

When I kissed you, when I tried to connect…

I knew you were someone… I’d rather forget.

 

My heart was willing, ready to love, eager for a new start…

I did not understand and was unprepared for my lack of heart.

 

You were a tortured soul… having been through hell and back,

Years of drama, hate and deceit make for a spirit… painted black.

 

You choose to mistreat the ones willing to help you stand tall…

And now I watch as the people you embrace… let you fall.

 

It has been said if you sleep with dogs you catch fleas…

I crawled through the mud and was surprised I had dirt… all over me.

 

They say certain life lessons are not learned until you hit rock bottom.

I say you are my darkest hour, my biggest mistake…

And my worst decision …

Before I met you… bottom had never been so deep.

 

 For Shade 

 

– Nova