The Apology Letter
To the Family that’s gone;
I’m sorry for those of you that passed without being able to say goodbye, I’m sorry so many of you have lost so much this year. I’m sorry my choices may disappoint you, I’m sorry I look so much like my mama some of you can’t look at me, I’m sorry I have my daddy’s “I don’t give a f*ck” attitude, and I’m sorry water is thicker than our blood. I’m sorry so many of you are loose in the bootie, I’m sorry you expect a lot of something when you give a lot of nothing., I’m sorry I gave you so many chances but most of all I’m sorry we can’t CHOOSE family.
To the Friends that came and went;
I’m sorry I couldn’t make those impossible things to happen for you, I’m sorry that my support in YOU was less important to you than my support in your WALLET. I’m sorry that you’re so worried about being prettier than me, I’m sorry I don’t think your girl is hot, I’m sorry your girl thinks I’m hot. I’m sorry that taking time to get to know each other was less important to you than spending time at the club. I’m sorry you felt the need to compete, (I don’t compete), I’m sorry if I made you feel insecure, and while I’m not sorry I met you I am sorry I wasted so much time on you.
To the Lovers that weren’t meant to be;
I’m sorry we are ‘exes’, I’m sorry I wasn’t good enough for you, I’m sorry I wasn’t what you wanted, I’m sorry I cared enough to be afraid for you when you weren’t smart enough to be afraid for yourself, I’m sorry I tried so hard, I’m sorry I thought having a roof over your head and food in your tummy was more important than having movie tickets and fancy clothes. I’m sorry my azz was too big for you, I’m sorry you were too young for me, I’m sorry I wanted you to fulfill your dreams, I’m sorry I think rent is more important than a weekend ‘ski trip’, I’m sorry I think the electric bill is more important than the cable bill. I’m sorry I hurt you, but most importantly I’m sorry I gave you the power to hurt me.
To the Readers;
Family is more about how you treat each other than who you share DNA with. Friends are CHOSEN family. Lovers are the answer to the question your heart has been asking.
I’m sorry for all of your hurts and I’m sorry for mine. I’m sorry it’s those hurts that make us stronger, I’m sorry disappointments make us better, I’m sorry failure makes us try harder, I’m sorry it helps to shape who we are and I’m sorry we will do it all over again.
Love Always…
Nova